ok

realised how badly i was playing. was down to $250, from $1700, and now back up to $850.
bad month overall. did at least $150 playing tournies. can't cash in any atm.

on to more fun things. like fergie at man u objecting to grant because he doesn't have the qualifications. coming from fergie who doesn't have them. did the same to southgate too. what a tard.

and i'm gonna get a 160gb iPod from pokerstars when i hit 27000 points which should be sometime this month. don't think it's worth playing there without rakeback. might have to switch to crypto again. i do hate them there, but will probably go with william hill since i'm never playing on interpoker again. unless it's a decent freeroll. currently on 23,800 points. made about 6-7000 this month so hopefully get it ordered in a couple of weeks. helps me playing patient sometimes when im playing for points. let's hope it works and i can build my account to $3k this month. that's the tartget but i'd settle for $2k and little to no tilting.

there were some other funny things but i forgot them. gonna start writing them down when they happen so i stop forgetting the comedy gold that escapes my mind.

sick everything

down to $750.

good day bad day

up and down and up and down 1700 to 1400 to 1700 to 1400

no tilting but sometimes not playing my a game, and can't seem to catch a break.

ups and downs

got up to $1500 and as soon as i did i took some beats went on tilt and down to $1050. carried on playing and logged off with account at $1100ish.
played a bit more in the last few days and account now stands at $1650. no tilt recently, and feel my game is quite good now and i can almost concentrate fully on 3 tables at once.

so just to write my goals down i will be playing this level till i get to at least $4.5k. then i will withdraw my $1.5k of deposits, leaving me with $3k.

all i then have to decide is when to up the level i play at according to either:

$1/2
start $4,000 - next level at $8,000 - drop down $2,800

$2/4
start $8,000 - next level at $16,000 - drop down $5,600

$3/6
start $12,000 - next level at $20,000 - drop down $8,400

$5/10
start $20,000 - next level at $40,000 - drop down $14,000


or more conservatively

$1/2
start $6,000 - next level at $12,000 - drop down $4,000

$2/4
start $12,000 - next level at $18,000 - drop down $8,000

$3/6
start $18,000 - next level at $30,000 - drop down $12,000

$5/10
start $30,000 - next level at $60,000 - drop down $20,000

depositS

not once, but twice for $300 each time, so total deposits are $1500!

ran average this week however, and playing so much better, and account now stands at $1250
last two days have played in the morning on stars, and at 9 o clock bst, it's drunken american time on stars. which is nice. easy game to beat, much easier than my usual time of playing, in fact, it's a bit like the weekends on stars.

my favourite hand of the last couple of days was someone betting every street in position against me and when i check raised river with 2 pair, he called all in with queen high! i don't think you can use pot odds as an excuse for that.

if i get time in the evenings i'm gonna try some of the mtt's for a big score, but atm no time in evenings to play for 5-6 hours.....but for $10-$50 you can get a payout of over $5k with fields of 600. thats not half bad. forgotten i actually enjoy tourney's when in the mindset for it. shame there's no rakeback or the cash games would be appealing.
until you hit supernova status you don't really get anything back. 30,000 points for a digital camera with £150 is hardly appealing. i'd rather have rakeback.
still waiting for a sklansky book i ordered on there 5 and a half weeks ago. not sure why i ordered it. i read it in a library once, and found 2 bits of advice that were useful. it's the tourney for advanced players book. something to read since i've read harringtons and caro's books that i last got.
did play live yesterday and in tourney and cash blew £150 winning a total of about 5 hands in 3 hours. got aces once and that was it. even if i would have played every hand i think i would have managed to split one pot, and lose all the rest. don't quite yet understand how i can keep losing live yet find it relatively easy online. i think there is a lot more fold equity online even at low stakes!

gonna start trying to get very fit also. going to do running, cycling and weights regularly, see if i can do a charity bike ride, and become good at tennis.

on a side note, i was stuck on a sudoku recently, and couldn't find a single number that would definitely fit. so i tried a combination and kept going with no inconsistencies. later on, again had to make a choice, and in fact, once more before i finished, i had to 'guess'. by the time the third 'guess' came along i realised there was more than one solution for the puzzle. I never realised that would be acceptable and always assumed there would be a unique solution per puzzle. not sure why i presumed that would be the case, but i do think it devalues it somehow if there is more than one unique solution per puzzle.

anyways, thats enough nonsense for one day.

...

looks like might have to deposit again.

unreal hands today. down a little, up a little, then get outdrawn and coolered for pots totalling about $800. AT $0.5/$1!!! HOW CAN I LOSE SO MANY MASSIVE POTS AT THIS LEVEL.

KK vs QQ and 88. obviously 88 wins
222 vs 555 to the same guy. that was over $300

just now 666, my only other set for two days and i get turned by a straight draw. $250

the rest are all just standard 2 nuts into the nuts.

tilted off a little at the end so decided to stop. $240 --> $60

mights deposit another $100 to bring total deposits to $1k.

may have to open a littlewoods account to get rakeback for all this is not currently worth it without rakeback. i must have raked close to $2k the last 2 months on stars and that would be worth $600 on any other network.

repeat to fade

deposit
play poor
lose

deposit
play poor
lose

deposit
play poor
lose

deposit
play poor
lose


repeat to fade.




that was going to be my last post as i couldn't break the cycle.
today i broke it. stick it in with the worst of it. i still got done by 4 outers too often, but hit to massive 2 outers in the biggest pots i played, and ended up for the day. wooo

running total = -$500
if i got rakeback from stars, this months would be approx £500. hmmm, time to find a new site perhaps?
i may get gold star status at the end of the month, but it's only when you reach supernova rather than platinum status that you get any cashback. and its not quite comparable to rakeback imo.
full tilt is only 27% but that's better than 0%

first things first, see if i can get level by the end of the month

(my have to play some mtts if i can get the time)

bad to badder

come back after a week off

first day win $80
last night and this morning every bad beat under the sun is reserved for the big pots.
i only win one, and that's when i put the chips in behind.
runner runner flushes, gutshots. all my sets get beaten, my aces get beaten, all AFTER the money goes in. three pots over $200 and the same <5% story.

only just started to tilt so quit playing for a bit.

went down to $0.25/$0.5, first hand hit quads. thanks dealer for taking the piss.

account now on $300. dunno what level to come back at.

at least there's football on the telly now to distract me for 6 hours.

on the up

played a few days in a row and hit the dizzy heights of $580 before dropping down to $430.

played for 3 hours yesterday and only broke even. made a few fpps.

played today for an hour and hit some monsters to leave my account on $1003.

gonna keep grinding away 3 tables at a time, and hope to hit $2k by the end of the month. (away for one week this month)

hopefully in 2 months will hit the $6k and start playing $1/2.

discipline is the main aim here. is quite bad to have no rakeback. 100k points is a plasma tv, but i think rakeback is worth more than that.

standard is quite poor, even some of the regulars i've begun to notice aren't much good at this level (what do i expect!), though can't find anywhere else to play at the moment.

don't like crypto anymore (would have to open a new account, prob with littlewoods, if i'm going to play there), mansion only has 10 seaters and i definitely don't have the patience for them.
betfair rinses my cpu (95% usage!).
party also has no rakeback, but with the added handicap of no amrikans.

so if i want rakeback and americans it looks like it will have to be 27% at full tilt....

unreal

two hands before i leave the tables i get 55 on a j53 flop. opponent has jj.
qq on button, only sitting with about 40bb at this point, nice low flop, big blind has aa.

costs me about $150.

account has $230, total deposits has been $480 (+ a $50 bonus i got at some point)

currently down $300

got the 2000fpps though, and a few more will get me silver status. WOWWEE.

still not hating the game as much as earlier.
playing live sometimes helps.

played last night at my local donkfest and got done QQ vs K10 when the flop started 3Q

then a J, then a 9.....do i fill up? no chance.

manage to get back up to 2k in chips, was at 3k+ before the qq hand which cost me 2.5k, and get all in AQs vs A2s, and even with 2 of my suit on the flop i manage to lose that for 5k in chips.

played some cash though, and my biggest win just by playing tight, winning just under double the tourney entry fee so not all bad.

on another note, i may have invented something new, which i might be able to patent and become reeeeeeeeech.

finally in profit

according to sharkscope, im back in the black for stt's
about $130 up in about 16 games, cannae complain.
worked out i need to play about 20 games a day at this level to reach the next point making status, but i can't seem to play more than about 7/8. only playing when in the mood and doing better, though faltering at cash atm, so gonna stick to stt's and play some mtt's when i can get time...
once i get to 2000 fpps gonna get a book too..

currently on about $150 and 1650fpps...

what a poor run....

having turned $27 into $270 on stars, it's all gone downhill
yesterday played 5 sixpaks cashing in none bubbling in three.
today played 4, 1 win, 1 second.
lost $80 at cash to make sure it was a losing session. bluffed far too frequently
playing some more 6paks now. 1st 2 going out with aces....2nd two still playing. playing patient but unconfident. so unconfident i'm making up words.
...
down to 3 in one of the games....here comes my bubble?
...
AQs loses to Q8s to put me in third from chip lead. standardly hits the flush after i hit the ace.

99 and board comes full of overcards and i get check raised all in. ffs.

heads up now massively behind.

out in 6th in the other 6pak...missed every fucking hand
after being 8k-1k down now 5-4 up
AA vs Q4 all in on a Qhigh board, and for t'first time today aces hold up.

time to eat some brownies and maybe another 3/4 games before bed.

winning session?

back to playing and enjoying it

had a gamble on party with my free money, put all my $69 on a $1/2 table, got up to $145 in about 10 mins with $150 my aim, before running trips into an underfull.

back on stars, turned my $23 from the start of the month into $220 playing at $0.25/$0.5 with one early session at $0.5/$1

plan is to play $0.25/0.5 till i get to $1k which i plan to hit by the end of the month.
also plan to hit 2k fpp to get a slansky book

then step up to $0.5/$1 and play that for a month with goal to reach $3k.

once i get there i'll move on to
$1/2 and see how it goes....

tilt

someone once told me about a king who didn't like one of the people in his kingdom, thusly, he decided to set him an impossible task.

he calls him to office, (though they probably didn't have offices when this was set) and says,
"i want you to inscribe on my ring a sentence that makes me happy when i'm sad, and sad when i'm happy. you have one month, else i hall punish you and your people"

so the wise old man, (i think i forgot to say he was wise, well, he is), trots off.

a month later he returns with the ring, duly inscribed. the king ready to lambast whatever is written, calls his advisors round and reads out loud
"this, too, will pass" (doesn't sound so good in translation)

the king thinks about it, nods, and lets the man go.

what does this have to do with poker?

well, after about a month of not taking it seriously, and barely playing, dropping about £100 in the process, i have decided to return with some ground rules.

no playing unless i want to. not just because i am bored. PATIENCE is going to be my main aim.

no tilting. thinking about the long run, is the best way to avoid tilt.
whenever things are going bad, just think, this moment, too, like every other moment ever to have been, will pass. and voila (pardon my french), no more tilt.

gonna hit some mtt's and $1/2 6 seater cash on pokerstars with $100 i still have in there. though there is the problem of no rakeback. gonna get to 2000 FPPs and get a book.

betfair sill won't run properly for me, eating my processor like there's no tomorrow.
interpoker suck balls.
mansion - i hate 10 seaters, will try to win some hu stts
party - no rakeback. still have about $30 in there worth doing something with

maybe open a new account somewhere...will have to some research...

been a month

been ok live, some funny tournaments i been playing in.

been losing pretty evenly on all sites in the past month.

only done a small deposit, left with about $30 in each of party/stars/mansion

pretty bored with poker, losing patience and therefore losing.

i think the two things that you need mots for poker is patience and patience. once this is mastered, learn to play in position = winning player.

so pretty annoyed with poker atm.
playing live is still a laugh, and the last time i went to a double chance i was playing looser than pari's hilton's inhibitions and more aggressive than a giant panda watching some porn

1st hand i get all in on the turn with 98s on a 764 board with the 7 and 6 of my suit, of course i miss my 18 outs twice, and villains 99 takes the pot.
few hands later i double up, then lose a few chips, then double up with perficly timed bullets. i was back to my starting stack of 2.5k and raise in ep to 300 (3bb), ad donkey on bb reraises to 2k with AK. THANKS.

later on, after being in complete control, raise utg with A10, and only the bb calls. 10 high flop, i bet, SHE raises, i push, she calls with AQ. turn is a Q. left me with about 1k, and im out next hand. but it was fun!

need to find a way to make online poker fun. i guess that just involves winning, gonna hit some mtt's. but need to play at least £20 ones. that requires more money in my account than i care to deposit....hmmm......

think ill take a holiday

no new plan

the money that i lost. the many thousands. only money anyway isn't it?

still got $80 in party, $100 in mansion, $300ish in stars and $150 in betfair.

gonna play stt's to rebuild....can't be bothered right now tho to be honest.

gonna play live once or twice a week when i can be bothered. played live on sunday in a fo.

lost a few chips early, then played perfect poker. till i messed up. 4 limpers inc small blind on a 6handed table and i have KQ in bb. raise to 1000 (100/200 at the time). 1 caller. got 1450 left behind. king high flop and i check because he had bet every time it was checked round to him the entire night (MASSIVE MISTAKE). he checks.
turn ACE. the one card i dont want to see. so i check. oh no, i bet 1k. (YOU MORON) he pushes i call, he has Ace rag. ty, and gn.

played cash 5/6 handed and didnt get one hand and spunked my money. waste of time.

no urge to play atm. gona get aroun £150 rb this month into uk betting account. will rebuild from that. hopefully will want to play by june.

...

bad

everything was perfic till the 4th of may. or thereabouts.

since then, lost about £3k. stopping for now.

playing any old game between $1/2 to $5/10. can't hit a thing, can't win a race, can't avoid being runner runnered let alone 2/3/4/5/6 outers.

:(

sing when you're winning

i have a case of can't be bothered to post while winning.
this, also will pass however.
having run terribly (and played terribly) since start of year, i deposited £200 into a crypto account on 21/03.
lost that and deposited another £200.
won the £20 tourney, and haven't looked back.
built up a nice amount, withdrew £1k, which was the total sum of deposits on this account (only opened in Jan) and now on £2.5k - which means over £3k in a month, virtually all at cash games.
sweet.
been going up limits slowly, £1/2 seems easily beatable, and played two sessions and £2/5. also appears beatable.
infact, i played $5/10 and bought in for $200. lost that rebought another $200 and cashed out with $1.8k.
played £2/5 twice. once bought in for £300 and left with double that. other time bought for £200 thrice, and left with a £5 profit.
so all seems good. similar to last year when playing on party. get the same number of beats, but no tilt, and grind my way slowly upwards.
had 2 consecutive losing days at the start of the month, but didn't try to win it all back in one go. maybe i'm slowly learning something.
not so much time to play at the moment. next aim is to win a satellite to a big tourney (not the wsop). will let you know how that goes. (not that anyone reads this)

tried the mansion 100k for the third time and KJ called a reraise for 1/3 of stack preflop vs my AK, and obviously beat me. what i found funny was they said " i fold if you push preflop". HA. im blinds 75/150. i have over 6k, they have about 5k, why the heck would i push pre after they raise to 450? i want all their chips when i have them dominated.

ace high

won the biggest pot i've ever won without a pair tonight.
been away for a week so had a week off.
didn't particularly miss it. no burning desire to rush back into things. also partly due to last big win, i always feel a bit nervous coming back into things that karma will take away all my profits. i don't believe in karma.
yesterday was first time played in a while and made a little, mostly at $1/2
today a lot more interesting.

played about an hour at $1/2 on crypto and made about $300.

played mansion, played AWFULLY, and lost about $300. after being $700 down so not too bad.

came back to crypto and decided to play a tournament, out 7th hand, first hand i played with KK in sb. run into aces. someone overcalled an all in reraise, followed by a call, with AJ. somehow he didn't win.

played some $1/2 and finished about $25 down.
did win the biggest pot i've ever won with Ace high.

Seat 1: mikael551 ($163 in chips)
Seat 2: LOSER ($177.25 in chips)
Seat 3: jaharenst ($193.50 in chips)
Seat 4: ME ($103.50 in chips)
Seat 5: Litus ($33.57 in chips)
Seat 6: J_archer ($257 in chips)
mikael551: posts small blind $1
LOSER: posts big blind $2
----- HOLE CARDS -----
dealt to ME [2h Ah]
jaharenst: folds
ME: raises to $8
Litus: folds
J_archer: calls $8
mikael551: folds
LOESR: calls $6
----- FLOP ----- [7s Jc 5c]
LOSER: checks
ME: bets $14
J_archer: folds
LOSER: calls $14

i've cont bet with nothing. he's called with...

----- TURN ----- [7s Jc 5c][8s]
LOSER: checks
ME: bets $26
Geo251212: calls $26

i've had a second shot at it, he's called with....

----- RIVER ----- [7s Jc 5c 8s][Qd]
LOSER: checks
ME: checks
----- SHOW DOWN -----
LOSER: shows [6d Ts] (High Card Queen)
ME: shows [2h Ah] (High Card Ace)
Me collected $102 from Main pot

HA. what was his call on the flop about?
at least on the turn he had a draw!
i laughed. but still lost on that table.

----- SUMMARY -----
Total pot $105 Main pot $102 Rake $3
Board [7s Jc 5c 8s Qd]
Seat 2: Geo251212 (big blind) showed [6d Ts] and lost with High Card Queen
Seat 4: ME showed [2h Ah] and won ($102) with High Card Ace


was also playing a $2/5 game at the same time. only played the table for half hour. bought in for $300. left 30 mins later with $700. not quite a hit and run, was beginning to feel tired. had one big hand. turned the A flush vs K flush.
made one great call with flopped 2nd pair (ended up being 4th pr) against the guy i had jsut doubled up off. he only had ace high. he bet small on the flop. same size bet on turn, and doubled it on river which was a king. if he has AK wp, thought he might have Ax, or overpair to the 8 high flop. about 5050 imo, he had AJ and that was a nice pot.

br goes up, need to play mansion $100k, but haven't been around for a while during the week to dos. will have to wait and see how things go.

thats enough for now, though there are a few things i've been contemplating i can't be bothered to carry on typing.

rampage

winning a little every day since the 2nd, and tonight decided to buy in for £100 at £2/5 and see how high i could get (a la bluescouse!)

third hand, tp into aces, and cleaned out.
hmmm
rebought another hundred, up and down a little till i pick up aces, and raise to 4*bb. K103 flop and i'm checked raised all in by the sb with KJ. aces hold and im back to level.

next big pot, one limper, i'm on bb with K7s and check.

flop is A97 two of my suit. sb min bets, i rasie limper folds sb calls. (i have him covered ha!)
turn is an 8. he checks, i bet half his stack, he all in's, i call. he has 98. loose flop call by him imo, river makes me a flush. nice.

few hands later i button raise (again) to 3*bb, bb reraises to 13.5 bb, i move all in, he folds.
up to £400 now.

don't play a hand for a while, then get K3s in bb. raised to 4*bb i call. they are sooted.
flop is KQx to spades. i check call a 3/4pot bet.
turn is Aspades. ultimate scare card. check check.
river is a small non spade. check check.
he had 99. tyvm

decide to leave when the bb mes to me, uncheck the autopost button, and disastrously pick up KK utg+1.
raise to 4*bb, sb calls.
flop is 10c4d3d
he cheks, i bet half pot he raises, i push. he has Jd10d for tp and flush draw.
me kings hold up and i'm up to £900.
was gonna take £300 to £5/10 when i got to £400 but banked my profit and went to watch some telly.

was playing some £1/2 at the same time and finished £10 up.